Paper, I feel ya man Im in the same boat.  Disability stinks but it is what it is.  I just thank the lord Im around and kicken yet.  With my infections I got from the surgeries to come out of that still alive is a blessing.  I have a friend that is dying from Cancer so when I think I have it rough anyday I just go visit him and then return home thanking the good man above that he decided to give me a disability that can at least be livable.  Thank the lord you are still alive after being hit by a car geesh thats too scary for my blood ha ha.