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Thanks, i appreciate that thought, i know its a "me" issue not a hobby issue.

I too should know better, the last time i tossed something like that was a radio when i was a very young man and yes picking up the pieces now that i no longer had any music to listen to anymore taught me back then there are consequences for hissy fits. So i made it all the way to 60 before doing it again and i suppose i have to relearn that lesson again.

I was thinking the exact same thing that i should put it away about 5 min before i tossed it. I too have PTSD, mine is in the form of confrontation. I am as cool as a cucumber until confrontation and then i become another person and very aggressive. That along with my TBI is a mix i dont wish on anyone. But i try very hard not to use those as a crutch or an excuse, it is what it is, but i do have to acknowlege that they exist. This is why i try to stay to myself because i know the only reason i am able to function as well as i do is because i have eliminated much of the stress of living. I dont know where i would be if i still had to deal with the stresses that everyone else has to deal with. I would probably be in jail or worse. I had no clue about my PTSD until i had a confrontation with someone last year and it was not pretty. No blood was spilled and noone got hurt thankfully but it shocked and scared me how aggressively i reacted and im sure they wont be doing that again. So i saw someone about it and i was diagnosed with PTSD as well. I do whatever i can to avoid those situations and walk away when i can, especially since i conceal carry. I am not worried that i may shoot someone wrongfully, but i am worried i might beat the living crap out of them if they toy with me lol

We all have battle scars and i know that everyone has some kind of battle they are facing that they tell noone about. Im pretty sure ill give it another go im just not sure when.

Those that battle with depression, PTSD, TBI and other serious issues have my prayers and thoughts, keep fighting...

<blockquote data-quote="durangod" data-source="post: 239792" data-attributes="member: 22075">Thanks, i appreciate that thought,&nbsp; i know its a &quot;me&quot; issue not a hobby issue. &nbsp;I too should know better, the last time i tossed something like that was a radio when i was a very young man and yes picking up the pieces now that i no longer had any music to listen to anymore taught me back then there are consequences for hissy fits.&nbsp; So i made it all the way to 60 before doing it again and i suppose i have to relearn that lesson again.I was thinking the exact same thing that i should put it away about 5 min before i tossed it.&nbsp;&nbsp; I too have PTSD, mine is in the form of confrontation.&nbsp; I am as cool as a cucumber until confrontation and then i become another person and very aggressive.&nbsp; That along with my TBI is a mix i dont wish on anyone.&nbsp; But i try very hard not to use those as a crutch or an excuse, it is what it is, but i do have to acknowlege that they exist.&nbsp; This is why i try to stay to myself because i know the only reason i am able to function as well as i do is because i have eliminated much of the stress of living.&nbsp;&nbsp; I dont know where i would be if i still had to deal with the stresses that everyone else has to deal with.&nbsp; &nbsp; I would probably be in jail or worse.&nbsp;&nbsp; I had no clue about my PTSD until i had a confrontation with someone last year and it was not pretty.&nbsp; No blood was spilled and noone got hurt thankfully but it shocked and scared me how aggressively i reacted and im sure they wont be doing that again.&nbsp;&nbsp; So i saw someone about it and i was diagnosed with PTSD as well.&nbsp; I do whatever i can to avoid those situations and walk away when i can, especially since i conceal carry.&nbsp; I am not worried that i may shoot someone wrongfully, but i am worried i might beat the living crap out of them if they toy with me lol We all have battle scars and i know that everyone has some kind of battle they are facing that they tell noone about.&nbsp; Im pretty sure ill give it another go im just not sure when.&nbsp; Those that battle with depression, PTSD, TBI and other serious issues have my prayers and thoughts, keep fighting...</blockquote>

[QUOTE="durangod, post: 239792, member: 22075"] Thanks, i appreciate that thought, i know its a "me" issue not a hobby issue. I too should know better, the last time i tossed something like that was a radio when i was a very young man and yes picking up the pieces now that i no longer had any music to listen to anymore taught me back then there are consequences for hissy fits. So i made it all the way to 60 before doing it again and i suppose i have to relearn that lesson again. I was thinking the exact same thing that i should put it away about 5 min before i tossed it. I too have PTSD, mine is in the form of confrontation. I am as cool as a cucumber until confrontation and then i become another person and very aggressive. That along with my TBI is a mix i dont wish on anyone. But i try very hard not to use those as a crutch or an excuse, it is what it is, but i do have to acknowlege that they exist. This is why i try to stay to myself because i know the only reason i am able to function as well as i do is because i have eliminated much of the stress of living. I dont know where i would be if i still had to deal with the stresses that everyone else has to deal with. I would probably be in jail or worse. I had no clue about my PTSD until i had a confrontation with someone last year and it was not pretty. No blood was spilled and noone got hurt thankfully but it shocked and scared me how aggressively i reacted and im sure they wont be doing that again. So i saw someone about it and i was diagnosed with PTSD as well. I do whatever i can to avoid those situations and walk away when i can, especially since i conceal carry. I am not worried that i may shoot someone wrongfully, but i am worried i might beat the living crap out of them if they toy with me lol We all have battle scars and i know that everyone has some kind of battle they are facing that they tell noone about. Im pretty sure ill give it another go im just not sure when. Those that battle with depression, PTSD, TBI and other serious issues have my prayers and thoughts, keep fighting... [/QUOTE]

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